Today has been a day of strong opinions. Today has been a day of being self centered. Today has been a day of thoughts. Today has been a day full of prayer. Today has been a day of tears. Today has been a day of laughter.
I've barely been able to contain all my emotion but I've realized one thing today: I am undeniably blessed.
- I have amazing parents who have been married for 20 years.
- I have a supportive family.
- I have a boyfriend who cares about me immensely.
- I have a job, two in fact.
- I have a family member who is in a place to be able to financially support me through college.
- I have the ability to walk.
- I have the ability smell the fragrance of a blooming flower.
- I have the ability to feel pain.
- I have a car.
- I have friends who are always there for me.
- I have a house to live in supplied with running water and electricity.
- I have a closet full of clothing, half of which I never wear.
- I have the time to divulge in a good book.
- I have the talent to sew a garment.
- I have a vivid imagination.
- I have more pillows that humanly necessary.
- I have the ability to go to a doctor when I am sick.
- I have 10 adorable cats, 9 of which love me dearly.
- I have access to music.
- I have overcome many things in my life.
However, more times than not I choose to dwell on negative things such as:
- I have amazing parents who have been married for 20 years but they have had some major struggles and mountains to climb.
- I have a supportive family but they tend to annoy the heck out of me.
- I have a boyfriend who cares about me immensely but what if he breaks my heart?
- I have a job, two in fact but I wish I made more money.
- I have a family member who is in a place to be able to financially support me through college but I hate school and doing homework.
- I have the ability to walk but what if I break something?
- I have the ability smell the fragrance of a blooming flower but my hometown smells more like cow poop.
- I have the ability to feel pain but it really hurts.
- I have a car but I want a better one.
- I have friends who are always there for me but what if they weren't?
- I have a house to live in supplied with running water and electricity but I am discontented.
- I have a closet full of clothing, half of which I never wear but I want to buy so many new things.
- I have the time to divulge in a good book but when do I?
- I have the talent to sew a garment but I think I am absolutely horrible at doing so.
- I have a vivid imagination but I rarely put it to good use.
- I have more pillows that humanly necessary but don't sleep perfectly on any of them.
- I have the ability to go to a doctor when I am sick but I rarely appreciate it.
- I have 10 adorable cats, 9 of which love me dearly but there is that one who is the devil's span.
- I have access to music but I hate most of the songs on the radio.
- I have overcome many things in my life but I have so far to go.
Frequently I find myself looking at my life and the things I have or am able to do in a negative way. This needs to change immediately, God did not give me this amazing life for me to wallow around in worries or pain or stress. God gives all of us the ability to life freely in him so why in the hell do we choose not to? Exactly. There is no logical reason. Just give your crap to God, all your issues and worries, he wants it and he loves to take care of it for you. Don't just believe it, dive in amd experience it. Love it, love him, enjoy him, press into him, and let him be the lover of your heart. Basically I just shared with you everthing I need to tell myself. It's ok though, realizing you have issues is the first step to healing. Heal me Lord and assist me in my choice to look at this amazing thing called life in a positive way.
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