I find that the exact moment we find ourselves in a place of sadness and despair is also the same moment that we forgot to realize the many blessings we have surrounding us.
I have been questioning something in my life and to make a decision about this thing would be life altering. Instead of quietly asking questions and praying to God for answers I've been obsessing about this thing and begging God to show me direction and answers to this possible huge change in my life. I'm not talking about polite begging, rather pleading in desperation as if my life depended on it. I know...classy right? I'm sure God got a chuckle out of it.
In my desperate attempts to find answers I found myself in this place of self-created isolation. I realized that instead of allowing help from others I insist upon finding the solutions myself, putting unnecessary and unhealthy stress on myself. I needed to realize, which I now do thanks to an amazing man (thank you by the way), that it is ok to have to depend on people. It's only human that that necessity occurs.
I simply find myself in a place where I need to be stretched and formed into something bigger than what I am. I want to be aware of a bigger purpose. And I want to be involved in something greater I've ever experienced. In fact I need that in my life right now. It is one of my greatest hearts desires.
Instead of being down and depressed about the minuscule things in life I think we all need to realize there are so many bigger pictures. There are books full of bigger pictures and we have the opportunity to decide which one we wish to be a part of. We are all uniquely blessed with talents to form these pictures that make our worlds expand and become beautiful and in doing so we not only affect ourselves but we have the opportunity to bring something wonderful to the people around us.
I think realizing that each one of us is infinitely blessed is a good first step into finding our bigger pictures...
I choose to count my blessings.
